Fingers crossed that writing out what you’re obsessing about helps cure it so that sleep can happen..
Would going to bed at 930 on a Friday make me a loser? Or make me magically better?
The real question is if my brain and coughing will allow such a thing as sleep…
am I sick from anxiety or am I actually physically ill? a memoir by me
am i lazy or horribly depressed: the sequel
does everyone hate me or am I just very insecure: the completion of the trilogy
I’m feeling craptastic and trying really hard not to web md my symptoms bc I know it’s just allergies and not consumption like I’ve decided it is…
I must go to work tomorrow and be better for the weekend bc there’s too much going on this weekend and too much going on next week
I just looked at this picture and my first thoughts were “look how hairy my arms are, look how thin my lip is, look how bushy my eyebrows are, look how wide my nose is” and then I just stopped and was like “look how happy I was- does any of that other shit matter?” And the answer is no.
I need to think like that more often.
My insomnia comes in forms of obsessions over little things that no matter how many times I tell myself- it’s not important or it can wait until tomorrow my brain starts building it into bigger things- colossal end of the world - get fired from your job things… So that three hours after turning out the light because I’m exhausted after feeling like shit all day- I’m trying to come up with ways to distract my brain like trolling tumblr but wouldn’t you know I can find things to obsess about in social media… And also my stomach obviously hurts because it’s full of blood.
This has been an attempt to make my brain realize it needs to sleep….